So today I got my girlfriend into bed but unable to get laid . I got nervous she can absolutely feel my energy. I was distracted always on my mind . So i kiss her she gave me mini blowjobs for like 30 seconds and I gave her the oral . I licked her pussy while making eye contact but it feels like she was acting making rooling eyes just to make me feel good . It was my first time ever and her too.
Key takeaways from todays was

1. I got needy also I feel like I push her to have sex
2. Right now I feel like a guy who don’t get laid often which is true ( So low in self-esteem and confidence)
3. Used to read articles about first time but Failed to deliver this time but will continue working .