So today is a bad day. I got a text from a Japanese girl that, to be honest, I didn't remember all that well and she seemed to wanna go out and have fun with me. I texted her back and she seemed really excited but it turned out she actually had the wrong number and when she remembered it was ME she instantly lost any interest whatsoever in continuing the conversation. She meant to text another guy with my name (Ricardo), I will attach an image of the guy she wanted to go out with instead for a few reasons. One, it will remind me that it can't possibly get any lower than this, and two, whenever you guys who are reading this feel shitty about yourselves, remember that I lost to a guy who is easily over 50 and bald as a motherfucker. My name is Ricardo, I'm 27 years old and will be 28 in June, I currently live in Portugal and I recently got back into university (will graduate next year) and I'll start living alone for the first time in March. My lay count is somewhere in the low dozens (close to 20) and with only a few exceptions, every girl I've been with was someone that I am not attracted to, I just fucked them cause I had no other options. I had an ex-girlfriend I really liked but we broke up. The girls I've banged aren't necessarily bad-looking but I seem to only be attracted to Asian girls, I know how to speak Japanese and am currently studying Mandarin, I do some English teaching on the side but I don't charge for it. I will try to list my traits as objectively as I can manage below. Strengths: Handsome(ish) Sociable Bold (not afraid to approach in the least) Have future prospects / ambitious Weaknesses: Overweight close to obese Despite being sociable I don't display desirable alpha traits, overall a bit girly and conciliatory when talking to people Dogshit online game (Terrible tinder pics/ sub-par texting) The reason I am making this post is this: I hate that I'm not improving myself as much as I could and I'm sick and tired of having the girls I actually care about lose interest in me and start to see me as a friend. I wanna stop being a pussy who keeps accepting being a mediocre human when I know I have a killer somewhere inside me. I've decided that is the day that I stop lamenting my bad luck and I start working to change it. From today, I will be working towards maximizing my SMV, changing my attitude, and ultimately reaching a place where I can get a high volume of girls that I'm attracted to. Obviously, since I live in Portugal that's not gonna be doable that early (I plan to move to an Asian country when I graduate) but there are still white girls I like and I know like 70% of the Chinese girls here in my city. In any case, I can certainly be doing more than just sitting on my ass and playing video games that I don't even like. I'll focus on getting better until I become a man that I'm proud of being. That's where this "diary" comes in. I want you guys to keep me honest, I'm gonna post my progress on a weekly basis here's what I've planned for this week: 1- Workout every day at home and go for a walk (I can't manage running quite yet) 2- Stop being a constant jokester around the girls I'm into ( I go out with a few every week) 3- Limit my jerking off to twice a week for now 4- Leave my house every day and study mandarin at the mall 5- Eat healthily and drink water, I will allow a cheat night on Saturday 6- Try to groom myself better, I'm terrible at keeping my beard not gay and my presentation is bad My next big milestone objective is to get into shape and not be such a mess in terms of looks, I'm not an ugly guy by any means but I'm way too overweight and my hygiene and presentation could be better. I also dress a bit hobo-ish. So I will consider this first step complete when I can take photos of myself that I am proud of, and when that happens, I'm gonna invest in a professional photo shoot so I can get my tinder game in order. This is the first step, I'm predicting 4-6 months of working out every day and controlling my diet. Thanks to PWF I managed to get my texting game to a very acceptable level, I use the app "Tandem" which is a language learning app to talk to Asian girls and I've been having around 80% of the girls I like be into me and agreeing to come to visit me in Portugal which is kind of an insane transformation, but I can't rely on girls that live so far away and I need to make progress here where I live. I'm just writing this little section to tell you guys that if you really take in what Alex teaches you, you WILL see results. For me it was somewhat of a day-night transformation, girls on tandem never used to reply but now almost every girl texts me excitedly. Now I just need to get my online profiles in order so girls actually swipe on me (I get swiped about once every 2 weeks on tinder, and they're always 3 or 4s, but since I can text girls without swiping on tandem it works MUCH better, same with OKCUPID actually). That's it for this first post, next Sunday I WILL post an update and I will be brutally honest about my progress. Thanks for your time guys, if you have suggestions please do contact me, also if you're in Portugal and wanna work together hmu.