Hey,

I must say first I have been around for a while with a varying degree of ups and down in a general low success rate: most likely because I never went to get my pictures done by a pro and I usually am shit at texting still even if there are great improvement - and I totally realize how the pictured representation of you 100% also affects 100% all answer someone is going to be giving to you based on perceived notion of what she thinks you are.

So bottom line, I suck big times. But I suck more than I used to so now I have no option but to get those pictures done. Unlike most of the very successful guys around I am barely making by - so going out, buying huge quantities of drink is a no go. Basically I have my flat, some booze. I also am rather bad at making money apparently. One might think - oh its just excuses: but at this point it is just very much fact. Also, and here is my problem I am trying to fix, i am an awkward person. Always has been. And hopefully will not stay that way. I have shitty parent models (both are even worse than I am), and never really had a lot of friends (didn't really care that much and when I started to care I really sucked at being a friend). So all in all my question is: any suggestions in fixing that? (One or many of those topics).

I am also not bad looking, but not a model- average leaning on good
I gain muscle mass easily and I just build myself a small flat-gym, I am going to bank on that on the next 3 months
I have to much brain and I over-analyze everything, which makes me a natural super nerd - and doesn't help the awkwardness
I am six feet, blue eyes, blond hair
I have no sense of fashion, (and limited ressources)
Same goes for home decoration - never really cared about it until now.
I somehow always managed to have a limited sex life - which prevented me from becoming anything close to an incel

I want to turn this around completely though. It has to stop.

I will take any golden nugget on the awkwardness bit.

Cheers,
E.