I think the artistic side of me is like. Why can’t I just be myself lol but fuck it either way. All this feedback helps even if it seems like I do t get it I do it’s just a tough adjustment.
I love words and being creative and the more considerate I get the more bottle up and shut down I feel which sucks. Kind of like a robot and then I’m like ok so if I’m the robot you want to fuck me but if I express myself you run away. I know that’s a blind spot and not real but that lack of desire to conform has been on my ass my whole life.
I guess I have to realize that if I’m going to play a suboptimal game that the results will reflect that and that’s ok. Either way tough to change who you are fundamentally as a person.
I guess I’m the quirky weird guy lol. However I’m also 6’4”. And working on a six pack. With green eyes. So these women match with me and I don’t know what the fuck I’m supposed to be to them some cut out from a web show or some cliche player? So at some point I’m like fuck this. It’s like everyone at ibm wearing the same suit. So yeah I have trouble with conformity.
Meanwhile I see guys with 1/10 of my attributes killing it because they love conformity and it makes me sad because there’s no room for authentic self expression with women and that sucks.
Btw(love the feedback this is just my genuine sticking point and it has been an interesting challenge my whole life lol. ) have an amazing day bro. Kick ass. Message any insights
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Thanks for the feedback man. I
I think the artistic side of me is like. Why can’t I just be myself lol but fuck it either way. All this feedback helps even if it seems like I do t get it I do it’s just a tough adjustment.
I love words and being creative and the more considerate I get the more bottle up and shut down I feel which sucks. Kind of like a robot and then I’m like ok so if I’m the robot you want to fuck me but if I express myself you run away. I know that’s a blind spot and not real but that lack of desire to conform has been on my ass my whole life.
I guess I have to realize that if I’m going to play a suboptimal game that the results will reflect that and that’s ok. Either way tough to change who you are fundamentally as a person.
Thanks again.
85 Posts (+6), 84 Cmts (+9)
I guess I’m the quirky weird guy lol. However I’m also 6’4”. And working on a six pack. With green eyes. So these women match with me and I don’t know what the fuck I’m supposed to be to them some cut out from a web show or some cliche player? So at some point I’m like fuck this. It’s like everyone at ibm wearing the same suit. So yeah I have trouble with conformity.
Meanwhile I see guys with 1/10 of my attributes killing it because they love conformity and it makes me sad because there’s no room for authentic self expression with women and that sucks.
Btw(love the feedback this is just my genuine sticking point and it has been an interesting challenge my whole life lol. ) have an amazing day bro. Kick ass. Message any insights