This is gonna be a little different than my usual shit. I was thinking a lot lately and I realized that there are 3 women in particular I'm straight up in love with. Hate using that word and I've done enough reflecting to know its because when I was younger I Proclaimed my love to a girl in a heartfelt letter that she proceeded to laugh at with her group of friends (all of which I knew). Im curious how you guys go about truly expressing to a girl you love her. Its like I know what I should say but i dont say it. And its different than just saying "I love being around you" or "i love you or x thing about you" or any other flirty line. There are girls I've wanted to just pour my heart out to in a fucking paragraph or in person and I honestly LOVE doing that but I'm scared to do so and have the girl think its weird or too fast or any other objection. Its like I can handle any other objection besides one that stems from me getting that genuine with a woman. Any advice would be appreciated. SOrry for getting so sappy and lame. Next post will be about fucking hoes I promise.
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When I was 29, I hooked up with an attractive 25 year old I met basically social circle. She was the daughter of a legit high ranking member of a major religious cult. She was not at all religious, and she Opened up to me beautifully in recounting some of her life events.
The sex blew my fuckin mind. The way she looked at me- crazy eyes, intensity like I'd never experienced (she was only the 6th girl I ever fucked, I was a total late bloomer). But she was obviously damaged to some extent growing up in that cult.
Her father wasn't even a bad guy in the sense that he broke away from it and put himself at risk, and his family at risk to do the right thing basically and get out.
My point is - she wanted to be able to tell me all that, but she needed me to be able to handle it, and her craziness, without losing my groundedness, my frame if you will. She needed me to be strong. If I had been able to, lord knows what would've happened, I might've ended up having kids with her.
She was magnetic. The 3rd or 4th time we had sex, I said, mud thrust, "I think I'm falling for you" and she returned that line to me, but not as enthusiasticly. Then if I read between the lines she fucked another guy two nights later. Then I took her on an expensive date including tickets to a major sporting event that were expensive. I gave the tickets to her to hold them. She i believe intentionally lost the tickets while we walked from the parking area to the event.
No problem, I found a nearby business hotel and reprinted them ( this was over 10 years ago). We had a good time, but after we had drinks nearby and she proactively told me "I'm not ready to be your girlfriend". I accepted that, but then when we had sex 2 hours later at my place, I felt such intensity that I said "I love you". She stopped us in the middle of sex, said "No! You don't". An awkward rest of the night, regrets expressed by both of us, a long awkward drive home, talk of "you can't put the toothpaste back in the tube" and I was just in pain for over a month afterwards, and I had literally only been on about 5 dates over 2.5 weeks. WEEKS.
I fucked up, but I was doing what I felt was genuine, real, and right at the time. I hope this perspective is helpful to you.
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it is. Im grateful you got that deep with me. I pray for that girl. I have a lot more to think on thanks to you guys